“I’m standing on the edge of the man I’m gonna be”
Such is the line in Jake Scott’s “Dancing in the Dawn”, and one of my favorite lines to ever find in a song. It’s a feeling I can’t shake these days. As we start to see the end of a global lockdown (hopefully in the next 6 months or so), I’m becoming acutely aware of the things I want in life, and the steps I’ll need to take to get there. It’s terrifying.
And yet, I can’t afford to be scared by the prospect. This is no time to act in fear, but time to take risks. Time to make wild and hope-filled attempts at whatever truly fulfills me. That’s why I’ve been posting more often on here, honestly. I find comfort and release in writing, even if it’s scatterbrained and I have an audience of like three readers. (Hi grandma!)
Intention is key right now. Why do I want to make a new channel on YouTube? Why do I want to keep writing? Why do I want to shoot more film? To these questions I have both simple and complex answers. Put simply, I have no other choice. I have to explore mediums that I’ve typically eschewed in order to expand my ability and reinvigorate the craft that I’ve let grow tired. It’s easy to just sit in a comfortable place with my skills in video, but it’s far more work to try and put together interesting posts and content for an audience.
So in the coming weeks I’ll keep pushing myself. Finding things to write about, finding new photos to talk about, finding new ways to share my work in meaningful ways. I hope you’ll join me.